When I was a freshman in college, I dated for the first time. However, I somehow found excuses to end it, even if it was all going well. The truth was that I was afraid of commitment. When I was a senior in college, I decided to date again. I didn’t know my type the first time I dated, and because of that, I chose anyone. “This time will be different, I just know it” I thought to myself as I once again browsed through the various profiles online. I wanted someone to relate to this time. That’s how I met the man I dated and came to be in a relationship with.
I knew he was right for me based on the initial conversations and the first few dates. However, the fear in me wanted a way out, wanted to say “he has a problem you won’t be able to accept”, but the fear of losing this man was even stronger. I did what I never did before, and I gave him a chance. The more time I spent with him, the more I came to admire and love him, just as much as he admires and loves me. Together we learned about ourselves and why we do the things we do.
I have been with this man for almost a year, and I must say that it was worth all the struggles, all the tears, the laughter, everything. I learned that commitment is nothing to be afraid of, especially if you are with the right person. If I had not trusted my gut and not given him a chance, I would have regretted it forever. I don’t fear commitment anymore, just the thought of losing someone like him, and all the memories we share, because that is love.